That easy 10 pounds did not happen. I could make excuses or I can own it. I choose to own it. I did not do the things I needed to do to make my goal happen. I have no one to blame but myself. I will say the blog post being late is not a result of depression or shame. I got down with the sickness Sunday evening, and I stayed down with it until today. It was even a call out of work kind of Monday.
I have a lifetime of living in regret and making excuses for why things failed or did not turn out as expected. None of that has ever served to move life forward for me. It made a good mental trap that helped stunt progress while I licked mental wounds and spun new narratives of why things happened. But at the end of the day, a simple truth is worth so much more than a complex explanation for a simple situation.
For an upside to this story, I completed my self-given task of avoiding the drive through for the month of January. This I can be proud of. Fast food has been an easy go to for far too long in my life. Again, the excuses were easy to come by as to why I should indulge in it. Too tired to make food, too hungry to make food at home, nothing sounds good, I deserve a whopper the list could be much longer, but you get the idea.
This 30 day fast food fast has made some mental changes. That go to list of excuses has been blow right the fuck out of the water. I proved them all wrong in those 30 days. I shop different now. I learned it is entirely possible to shop healthy, affordable and easy to prepare. It is easier to save money when fast food is off the table. The drive through is really not cheap, and one "Value meal" can really be two or three at home meals.
So was it worth it? HELL YES!! I have zero regrets. Am I going for month two? I broke my 31-day fast with Jack In The Box. Sunday I had Carl's JR with Shelby and Jackie. I honestly wondered if that was what made me sick. But that was not the case. I intend to limit the fast food intake, it really is no longer an easy go to for me. I feel better without it. I have no desire to get back into those bad habits. I might do another strict month long ban if I slip in this resolve but I don't see that happening. I started a new weight loss tracker for this month. I weighed in today at 349 lbs. I am excited to see where this month takes me and where I take it on my weight loss journey. Keeping this late edition post short and sweet tonight. I will catch up with all of you on Sunday!
Bishop :(:
Comments
Post a Comment